For a month or so since I had been back I had felt like my head was detached from my body. I wasn't in the mood to be in columbia, I desperately needed a job, I missed my friends and was looking for something to do to ground me. I applied at 8 different places for a job, and because I have kick-A availability for once I thought getting a job would be a piece of cake. Did I mention I didn't want to be in Columbia?

I didn't like the feeling of a detached head, or the confused feeling that was in my heart. Then my mom, a woman who follows teachings of Buddhism (among other belief systems) suggested that I go to an energy guide/ healer. I said, why not? I don't know what else to do!

The women that I went to was a friend of my mom's. she had studied energy healing for years with the most practiced Buddhists in the country. The belief is that everything in this universe has energy flowing in them. This energy flows in a fluid manner (a.k.a not in a rectangle fashion but more of like a figure 8) through our bodies. Also, throughout our bodies there are shakras, certain energy centers, that account for different things in the body, for example anger, grounded-ness, the physical body, etc. Sometimes certain happenings in your life can disrupt the energy flow of the body, and sometimes blockages can happen in your shakras, throwing the whole system off.

another part of this belief system is the belief that there is another dimension, a spirit world. They believe in energy beings in the same way that Christians belief in angels. They believe that there is a God who is pure love, and wants humans to experience this pure love, and that they have it secretly waiting inside them, waiting to be tapped into. the angels are there to help humans too, to restore their energy to it's original state so we can be at peace and able to love.

the woman didn't think "healer" was the right word for what she does. She called herself a conduit. That people have the capacity to restore their original energy flow by themselves, but don't know how to do it. She is there to call upon the angels and to use her own energy to nudge away the things blocking the fluidity of the self.

she placed her hands on me, starting at the toes, going up the legs, hips, stomach, chest, neck, and head. moving slowly. using her energy.

this woman told me that i needed to be patient. She told me that I am adventurous, loving, and intelligent. She told me that anger, whose shakra is the liver, was built up in my body, but that my body was so ready to get rid of it that it wasn't hard to nudge it away. she said that normally energy flows in the body in figure eights, but that my energy was blocked, therefore was not flowing at all, as if someone had built a wall in my abdomen that didn't allow the two halves of my body to be connected by proper energy flow.

she told me that the things i was looking for would find me. i then told her about my job frustrations. she said i will get the job i am supposed to have, and to worry is to not have faith in the fact that life will play itself out. stress in no cure, but patience is the only remedy.

I left her, feeling not only physically restored but more contented and patient in my previously scattered mind.

a month passed and i was beginning to get impatient again. who wants their parents to pay for their groceries?

then i was sitting in my favorite coffee shop, telling my friend that works there that the new guy working that day is a d-bag because he got the job i have wanted for years. She talked to her boss, and i was hired on the spot. i got the job i have wanted for 3 years.
then i was offered another job, which is equally has amazing as the first.

although i would still rather be elsewhere, that's no longer on my mind. i haven't felt this content in a very very long time. i am peaceful. i used to feel like i owned this town, but at the same time i never felt connected to it. when i came back to it after a year, and everything changed, i felt like it had slapped me across the face. and then, after a little time, i met new people, and the new people that i have met have been so welcoming and lovely people that they have re-invented this place for me. it's now my safe-haven. a place in which i feel like i am not only accepted and comfortable, but that my presence is a joy for them.

that is a great feeling.