Thursday, October 30, 2008

OBAMA IS COMING TO COLUMBIA!
SAY WHAT?!?!
:-D

Sunday, October 19, 2008

I was going to just give you the link to this article, but thought if the words were here you'd actually read it.

Taleban insurgents have killed at least 27 people travelling on buses in the southern Afghan province of Kandahar.
A Taleban spokesman said that all those killed in the attacks on three buses were Afghan government soldiers, but officials said they were civilians.
The attacks happened on Thursday but the bodies have only just been found, dumped over a wide area.
A number of the men were beheaded after the attack in the Maiwand district, local and military sources say.
A Taleban spokesman said its fighters had boarded the buses travelling on the province's main highway, removed men identified as soldiers and shot them.
Afghan officials said all the victims were civilians as soldiers travel in military convoys or by plane.
Kandahar province has seen fierce fighting in recent months.
The Afghan army and international forces are fighting a counter-insurgency campaign against anti-government forces in the south of the country, the BBC's Martin Patience reports from the capital, Kabul.
'Child killed'
The casualty figures could not be independently verified.

According to police in Kandahar, the militants failed to stop one bus, after which they opened fire, killing a child aboard the vehicle.
Stopping another bus carrying about 50 people, they killed 24 of those aboard and freed the rest, Kandahar police chief Matiullah Qateh was quoted as saying by Reuters news agency.
He added that women and children were aboard the buses involved in the attack.
An Afghan defence ministry spokesman, Gen Mohammad Zahir Azimi, was quoted by The Associated Press as saying a total of 31 people were killed.
Six of the dead were found beheaded in an area away from where the others were shot, the general explained. A village elder also said some of the dead had been decapitated.
Taleban spokesman Yousuf Ahmadi told AFP news agency that those killed were soldiers en route to Helmand province.
"We found government documents on them and we killed 27 of them," he said. "The rest, who were civilians, we freed."

-courtesy of bbc news.

Monday, October 6, 2008

I am exhausted.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

My bike got stolen.
:(

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Palin

Here are some words from a very intelligent man.


Obama and the Palin Effect

by Deepak Chopra

Sometimes politics has the uncanny effect of mirroring the national psyche even when nobody intended to do that. This is perfectly illustrated by the rousing effect that Gov. Sarah Palin had on the Republican convention in Minneapolis this week. On the surface, she outdoes former Vice President Dan Quayle as an unlikely choice, given her negligent parochial expertise in the complex affairs of governing. Her state of Alaska has less than 700,000 residents, which reduces the job of governor to the scale of running one-tenth of New York City. By comparison, Rudy Giuliani is a towering international figure. Palin’s pluck has been admired, and her forthrightness, but her real appeal goes deeper.
She is the reverse of Barack Obama, in essence his shadow, deriding his idealism and turning negativity into a cause for pride. In psychological terms the shadow is that part of the psyche that hides out of sight, countering our aspirations, virtue, and vision with qualities we are ashamed to face: anger, fear, revenge, violence, selfishness, and suspicion of “the other.” For millions of Americans, Obama triggers those feelings, but they don’t want to express them. He is calling for us to reach for our higher selves, and frankly, that stirs up hidden reactions of an unsavory kind. (Just to be perfectly clear, I am not making a verbal play out of the fact that Sen. Obama is black. The shadow is a metaphor widely in use before his arrival on the scene.) I recognize that psychological analysis of politics is usually not welcome by the public, but I believe such a perspective can be helpful here to understand Palin’s message. In her acceptance speech Gov. Palin sent a rousing call to those who want to celebrate their resistance to change and a higher vision
Look at what she stands for:
o Small town values — a nostaligic return to simpler times disguises a denial of America’s global role, a return to petty, small-minded parochialism.
o Ignorance of world affairs — a repudiation of the need to repair America’s image abroad.
o Family values — a code for walling out anybody who makes a claim for social justice. Such strangers, being outside the family, don’t need to be needed.
o Rigid stands on guns and abortion — a scornful repudiation that these issues can be negotiated with those who disagree.
o Patriotism — the usual fallback in a failed war.
o ”Reform” — an italicized term, since in addition to cleaning out corruption and excessive spending, one also throws out anyone who doesn’t fit your ideology.
Palin reinforces the overall message of the reactionary right, which has been in play since 1980, that social justice is liberal-radical, that minorities and immigrants, being different from “us” pure American types, can be ignored, that progressivism takes too much effort and globalism is a foreign threat. The radical right marches under the banners of “I’m all right, Jack,” and “Why change? Everything’s OK as it is.” The irony, of course, is that Gov. Palin is a woman and a reactionary at the same time. She can add mom to apple pie on her resume, while blithely reversing forty years of feminist progress. The irony is superficial; there are millions of women who stand on the side of conservatism, however obviously they are voting against their own good. The Republicans have won multiple national elections by raising shadow issues based on fear, rejection, hostility to change, and narrow-mindedness
Obama’s call for higher ideals in politics can’t be seen in a vacuum. The shadow is real; it was bound to respond. Not just conservatives possess a shadow — we all do. So what comes next is a contest between the two forces of progress and inertia. Will the shadow win again, or has its furtive appeal become exhausted? No one can predict. The best thing about Gov. Palin is that she brought this conflict to light, which makes the upcoming debate honest. It would be a shame to elect another Reagan, whose smiling persona was a stalking horse for the reactionary forces that have brought us to the demoralized state we are in. We deserve to see what we are getting, without disguise.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

For a month or so since I had been back I had felt like my head was detached from my body. I wasn't in the mood to be in columbia, I desperately needed a job, I missed my friends and was looking for something to do to ground me. I applied at 8 different places for a job, and because I have kick-A availability for once I thought getting a job would be a piece of cake. Did I mention I didn't want to be in Columbia?

I didn't like the feeling of a detached head, or the confused feeling that was in my heart. Then my mom, a woman who follows teachings of Buddhism (among other belief systems) suggested that I go to an energy guide/ healer. I said, why not? I don't know what else to do!

The women that I went to was a friend of my mom's. she had studied energy healing for years with the most practiced Buddhists in the country. The belief is that everything in this universe has energy flowing in them. This energy flows in a fluid manner (a.k.a not in a rectangle fashion but more of like a figure 8) through our bodies. Also, throughout our bodies there are shakras, certain energy centers, that account for different things in the body, for example anger, grounded-ness, the physical body, etc. Sometimes certain happenings in your life can disrupt the energy flow of the body, and sometimes blockages can happen in your shakras, throwing the whole system off.

another part of this belief system is the belief that there is another dimension, a spirit world. They believe in energy beings in the same way that Christians belief in angels. They believe that there is a God who is pure love, and wants humans to experience this pure love, and that they have it secretly waiting inside them, waiting to be tapped into. the angels are there to help humans too, to restore their energy to it's original state so we can be at peace and able to love.

the woman didn't think "healer" was the right word for what she does. She called herself a conduit. That people have the capacity to restore their original energy flow by themselves, but don't know how to do it. She is there to call upon the angels and to use her own energy to nudge away the things blocking the fluidity of the self.

she placed her hands on me, starting at the toes, going up the legs, hips, stomach, chest, neck, and head. moving slowly. using her energy.

this woman told me that i needed to be patient. She told me that I am adventurous, loving, and intelligent. She told me that anger, whose shakra is the liver, was built up in my body, but that my body was so ready to get rid of it that it wasn't hard to nudge it away. she said that normally energy flows in the body in figure eights, but that my energy was blocked, therefore was not flowing at all, as if someone had built a wall in my abdomen that didn't allow the two halves of my body to be connected by proper energy flow.

she told me that the things i was looking for would find me. i then told her about my job frustrations. she said i will get the job i am supposed to have, and to worry is to not have faith in the fact that life will play itself out. stress in no cure, but patience is the only remedy.

I left her, feeling not only physically restored but more contented and patient in my previously scattered mind.

a month passed and i was beginning to get impatient again. who wants their parents to pay for their groceries?

then i was sitting in my favorite coffee shop, telling my friend that works there that the new guy working that day is a d-bag because he got the job i have wanted for years. She talked to her boss, and i was hired on the spot. i got the job i have wanted for 3 years.
then i was offered another job, which is equally has amazing as the first.

although i would still rather be elsewhere, that's no longer on my mind. i haven't felt this content in a very very long time. i am peaceful. i used to feel like i owned this town, but at the same time i never felt connected to it. when i came back to it after a year, and everything changed, i felt like it had slapped me across the face. and then, after a little time, i met new people, and the new people that i have met have been so welcoming and lovely people that they have re-invented this place for me. it's now my safe-haven. a place in which i feel like i am not only accepted and comfortable, but that my presence is a joy for them.

that is a great feeling.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Krishna Das

"A few weeks after Ram Das and I had been at Maharaj-ji's Hanuman temple, tucked in the majestic himalayan mountains, a day came when a curious and soul-searching Canadian entered the front of the temple. Now, Maharaj'ji was a busy man, always organizing the things in the village, ordering monks here and there for temple up-keep, always occupied with something and running around all over the place. The day the Canadian man entered, Maharaj-ji quickly asked, 'What are you looking for here, canadian? What do you seek to learn?' The canadian, who hadn't really thought of exact reasons for coming, suddenly became nervous and hesitant, and decided to say, 'I want to learn how to meditate.' Maharaj-ji let how a sudden, boisterous laugh. He looked at the man, and started to shoo him to the back of the temple, to the small room where Ram Das and I were sitting. Maharaj-ji said with a jovial tone, 'Go! Go back with the rest of your western friends, and meditate like Jesus.' This confused the Canadian, but he followed orders quickly because the short interaction with Maharaj-ji left him shaken and excited about actually being accepted into the temple. He came back to the room where we were all sitting on the floor. We all introduced ourselves and then we began to tell us the story of what had just happened. His account of Maharaj'ji didn't surprise us because we had already come to understand his colorful nature. But as we continued talking we were perplexed at why our Babba, as we called him, had told the canadian to pray like Jesus. We thought maybe he was trying to make him feel more comfortable in this new asian country by referring to this western God, Jesus. But we asked ourselves, 'Why did he say to meditate like Jesus? How did Jesus meditate?' We soon decided to ask Babba as soon as he came back in the room this very question. A few hours later, (he was a busy man) Babba came back into the room in his quick and lively manner to check on us. We greeted him, and then I asked him,'Babba, how did Jesus meditate?' The usually busy and lively man got very still. He slowly closed his eyes, slightly lifted his chin, and raised his arms, palms upward. He stayed like this for a couple minutes, everyone in the room was completely silent, watching him. Babba was so peaceful and calm that it seemed like he was completely removed from us, as if he were the only person in the room. Then, with his arms raised and chin tilted upward, a small, silent tear rolled down his cheek. He slowly opened his eyes and looked to us, and said 'He lost himself in Love.'"

-Krishna Das, stories about his time with Maharaj-ji, and learning what true Love is.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Ciao Ciao, ci sentiamo a dopo!

I've realized how quickly time moves. If you aren't really where you are, and always thinking about what, inevitably, will happen in the near future, day turns to night before you know it, and then night turns to day and all of a sudden you've returned to where you didn't want to be and wishing you could have had just a little more time.

i refuse to let that happen. especially in the final beautiful hours, minutes, and seconds that i have until the next times.

i just spent a week with roberto in Cinque Terre. five little towns settled in these little mountains but also kissing the charming italian coast. i am incredibly grateful that i was able to be THERE, in those moments, feeling every ray of the sun warming my body and every salty wave that i dove into, and i was able to truly enjoy every sip of fizzy white wine in between bites of focaccia, and savor every big hug and every silly kiss. i am very lucky that i only allowed myself a few moments of "oh crap, i'm leaving in a few days," (and only while roberto was sleeping), because had i be dreading my return (alone) to madrid, (and inevitably to the u.s.) the whole time, i wouldn't be as radiant as i am now from how happy the whole time was.

we slept in a tent.
i learned italian.
i shared everlasting moments alone with my favorite person in the world.


now i'm in madrid again. totally bumming out. feeling what is the accumulation 7 days of something i was not allowing myself to feel... Going Home

although i leave Europe with a substantially heavy heart, it is only in thinking of the of the amazing things it has given me this year. most abundantly, my friendships.

and although every second that i am writing this my throat is tight and my heart is sunk, and maybe my eyes are moist with warm tears, i know that this place will patiently await my return, and my friends will await me with open arms. to them i am forever grateful and indebted, and i am excited for the new moments we will have together.


giá mi manci, amore.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Esta poniendo negro...

It's getting down to the wire... with only a week left with my friends here in madrid, i find myself trying to cram as much time in with them as i can. I keep going out with them and having dinners with them and now i am tired! I'm having some alone-ish time right now and i just keep thinking about how i want to go grab a coffee or something with SOMEBODY! i don't want to leave these people!

I still have two exams left, both on thursday. this means i can't pick my parents up from the airport, but four of my friends have volunteered to go pick them up for me. four! and looking on the bright side... my parents are coming to see me! they've been having the best time for the past two weeks in Tuscany and in some remote village in the Swiss Alps, and now i get to show them the country and culture i have grown to love. (yes, it took growing). My friends and i are having a going away/birthday party that my parents are coming to, so we'll see how that turns out. I think we'll all have a grrreat time. maybe more mojitos?(?)

one thing i'm looking forward to in the next year: having a bike!


i don't want to leave.

Monday, June 2, 2008

Can't Study (?)...

So here in Spain it is 12:16 a.m. and i have an oral exam tomorrow about Processes of Social Change. The class is extremely difficult (for the spaniards too!), so i'm having trouble getting myself motivated to study...

I'm waiting for the sun to come back out... maybe tomorrow? sick of all cloudy-rain-tease weather! silly deserts.

Cassidy introduced me to a new artist, named Laura Marling, after she went to a concert with the bf. (a concert of who? i don't remember... Laura is grrreat!) Here is a clip. i think she has a beautiful voice, and in some of her songs i'm getting a french-esk-type-of-music feeling. Hope you like her as much as i do! thanks cassafrass.











And here's a picture of the island i'm going to with Rocco. :)



Saturday, May 17, 2008

The weather is shaping up again! it has been raining for a week or so now and it was getting to be a bummer. i need my daily hour of sunshine or i get cranky!

finals are finally coming up. :( again with the catching up with the hundreds of pages of texts and what not. but it will feel good when they are over! (not because the semester is coming to a close, because frankly i'm not too excited about going home. simply for the fact that i don't have any more silly finals at complutense to stress out about).

things are pretty tranquilo aqui. still attempting to learn italian (which many of my italian friends have told me is a useless ability). lol. at least i'm still learning to cook italian. and a little czech goulash too.

i've also spoken with a couple of my friends back home, and they've been telling me how much things have changed and continue to change back home. not necessarily for the better, and not necessarily the people themselves, just circumstances and dynamic are changing. i guess that's ok. my roommate adeline has already told me that it's common for students who do year-long (even semester-long) study abroad always end up gravitating towards each other to reminisce about their old international friends and complain about being home. haha. i suppose i wouldn't mind that. especially since a lot of my friends are graduating or moving away! it'll be good to identify with people who have the same feelings/experiences.

i was going to go to the sigur ros concert with some really awesome people, and it was going to be freaking amazing to see them again, but it turns out i mixed up my months, and i'll be missing the concert and a couple of my friends by about a month and 3 days. tronzo. :(

on the lighter side, roberto and i decided where we are going to go in italy for a few days right before i leave for the states... we're going to camp out. :-D




Thursday, May 1, 2008

7 days, 7 kilos... who cares! it's ITALY!

it's been a while friends! sorry i've been lazy.

since i last blogged many things have happened. the weather has improved greatly: 73 and sunny today, 80 and sunny tomorrow! i'm enjoying laying myself in the forcefully grown grass of Somosaguas (as madrid is a desert...no real grass) with my friends and soaking up the sun like a once-dying plant, relieved for another chance to photosynthesize. i think without the sun i'd be extremely cranky.


i went to italy with seven of my friends the last week of march/first week of april. we started off in the fashion city of Milan, though as the italians showed us around we came to agree with them that in itself, the city isn't SUPER impressive. it still has a beauty that is unique to italy, and it has a fun atmosphere.. but...the reason it ended up being (possibly) my favourite because we spent the majority of the two days and two nights in that rich city with roberto's personality-rich friends and family. best food i've ever eated: made joyfully by Roberto's mother, and roberto's friends used what english they had to really show us a great time. though i lost five euros in poker, i got to drink a little too much amazing italian wine and laugh myself to death. it was marvelous.












then we headed to Venice, in which we only spent (not even) a day. it was beautiful, but Roberto informed me (and i later realized first hand) that the majority of the people that make up the city arent' even italians, they are tourists. ha.











the next city we enjoyed was Florence, which ended up being (in reality) my favourite. it's big enough to be a city, but small enough to not be New-Yorkish. the older part of the city is separated from the newer part by a smooth, cheerful river, over which the brick-lined bridges carry the beautiful italians. the art and the architecture and everything about the city is quite enchanting. the streets are charming, lined with beautiful lampposts and most likely with historical somethings. i could see myself living in Florence some day.












the last city we were privileged to visit was the ancient and most well known city: Rome! the ruins (i have to talk about the ruins!) were magnificent, taking my imagination back to a mystical time in a way that my textbooks never could. it's not an exaggeration when they say that every time you turn a corner there's another historically-relevant building or place. it was ridiculous.
we saw the Sistene Chapel/the vatican. i climbed to the top of a castle and looked out over the beautiful city, surrouned by small mountains, the pointy tops of the old churches poking up through the ancient buildings surrounding them. it was a phenomenal experience.










as always, spending time with my amazing friends was an experience that i will cherish forever. they are nothing short of incredible. easy-going, fun-loving, intelligent, this list could go on a while. i am very lucky to have them here. :)
Between the panzeroti and the people, the awe-inspiring sites from the tops of churches and the beautifully-historical everything-elses, i think i'm in love... see you soon italy!



















p.s. about London/general life in a couple days. ciao friends.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

BOOM!

My parents were supposed to come visit me this week for Holy Week, but i received a call from my mother on thursday (i think) saying that my dad's old intestinal problem, that started with a teen car crash, resurfaced suddenly and my mom had to take him to the E.R.. Intestinal blockage/swelling=extreme pain. Anyhoo, the doctors weren't sure if they're have to do surgery, and they had to keep him in the hospital, so they didn't want him to travel. therefore, i went to Valencia with my best friends! my dad is all better, so i don't feel bad for enjoying my time with my friends. :)

Anyway, every year in Valencia they have a week of where they put fallas (stationary floats) all over the city, closing off the streets and placing the fallas directly in between the apartment building and stores. The floats have some sort of political meaning (my wiser roommate Dawn just informed me), but i have no idea what any of them mean. On top of that, the whole week people are lighting and throwing explosives (not real ones, just firecrackers), constantly, all day. it sounded like a war zone. it was crazy. And at night, there are even more people out on the street, and the youth throw the firecrackers in the crowds of people. great fun, dodging those things, let me tell you.

But a few days into it (this year it was yesterday, wednesday) they light all of the floats on fire! Can you imagine, building-sized things just up in flames, lighting up and heating up everything around them? Too bad some of them cost up to 500,000 euros to make. I wonder how many people we could feed with 500K instead of burning tons of colored plastic. Nevertheless, it was pretty neat. Right before they light the big ones on fire, they shoot off a ton of fireworks. (figures).
anyhoo, here are some pictures.

There's also a beach in Valencia. that was the most fun. :)

I say this a lot, but i love my friends.




Giant Paella. (That's not the man, it's the rice.)





beach, boat, spanish kids having a little fútbol fun.





friends chillin.





this is right below the terrace of the apartment of the friends we were staying with. if you look closely, the guys have little piles of explosives right by their feet, from which they continuously grab and light the little annoying things.





Falla and fireworks.





Falla being burned, everybody taking pictures. Kind of cool.





Right outside the terrace.





Boy. :)





Friends. :-D

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Appreciation

I have come to love my facultad here at Madrid's lovely Universidad Complutense. Here are some cool things about the Political Science/Sociology Building: Out of all of the buildings on campus, my facultad (building) is the only one in which, despite the "Prohibido de Fumar" signs every 5 meters, the entire building is hazy with cigarette/hash smoke, as these students don't believe clean air is really that necessary; out of all the people at complutense, the students en my facultad are the ones with the most piercings, the weirdest (don't give a damn) clothes, the most dreadlocks, and the most mullets; my facultad is in the part of campus about a 20 minute bus-ride away from the main, large campus, and this is because during the Franco era the students in my facultad (along with a couple others on this far away campus) were the ones staging the protests against Franco. Therefore he moved them far away so they wouldn't be a bother.

I am proud to call myself an Anthropology student, thus a student in the Ciencias Politicas y Sociología building. :) we rock!

Climbing in the mountains was amazing. It was a beautiful day (as it is today and will continue to be... yay spring!) and Roberto and I were the only non-czechs in the bunch. but we did grab a beer in the pueblo at the bottom of the mountain, and beer lead to conversation which lead to politics and we had some great discussions about our respective countries (Italy, Czech Republic, U.S.). i feel like everyone here, at least that i've met, is really aware of what's going on not only in at their home but also really educated and stay up-to-date on the goings-on EVERYWHERE! it makes for great, opinionated, many-sided discussions.

my czech friends (in that same conversation) told us that the English head over to the Czech Republic on the weekends to binge drink (because the beer is a pint for 1 euro). they just get sloppy drunk and then go home on sunday. HA!... they don't think it's very funny.

my parents are coming to spain on sunday! booyah!

then the week after that i'm going to Italy!! Roberto's going to teach me how to drive his stick shift. :-D

Happy Trails

Thursday, February 28, 2008

:)



a birthday present. this dog is almost as big as i am. we spoon every night. :)

and remember that post from before?? cassidy got me the soundtrack. of course she did. love love.

i picked two classes so far: cognitive anthropology and urban anthropology. here we go again...

72 degrees this sunday. mountains here i come! i can't wait to hang out with my nerdy czech friend, Honza, again! :-D

counting down the days until italy...

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Mi Obsesión





My Current Obsession.
Cuba. and the people in it. This is from the Movie "Habana Blues". Check it out.

Lyrics and (rough) Translation:

Hoy, miro a través de ti, las calles de mi habana
Tu tristeza y tu dolor, reflejan sus fachadas,
Es tu alma y soledad, la voz, la voz de esta nación
Cansada
Solos tu y yo, en la ciudad dormida
Solos tu y yo, besando las heridas
Hay habana
Cada vez te olvidabas más de ti, para apoyar mis sueños
Pero sé que lastimé tu corazon, jugando con tus
Sentimientos
Fue la luz, esa que robé dejando a oscuras tus deseos, eh, eh
Solos tú y yo, en la ciudad dormida
Solos tú y yo, besando sus heridas
Habana
Y tengo que dejarte ir, poniendo el mar entre los dos
Pagando el precio de otros que viven de la
Contradicción
Otra familia que quedó marcada por la separación
Como luchar, con ese sol con la política y con dios



Today, I look through you, the streets of my Havana
Your sadness and your pain, reflected in its facades
It's your soul and your solitude, the voice, the voice of this tired nation

Alone you and I, in this sleeping city
Alone you and i, kissing it's wounds
Habana

Every time forgetting yourself to support my dreams
But I know I hurt your heart, Playing with your feelings
It was the light, that which I stole from you, leaving your dreams in darkness

Alone you and I, in this sleeping city
Alone you and i, kissing it's wounds

And i have to let you leave, putting the sea between the two of us
Paying the price of others that live in contradiction
Another family marked by separation
Like fighting, with that sun and that policy and with God.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Study Buddies




Last trabajos for this semester! these are my faithful study buddies who always keep me company: Señor Vela, Señora Coke Light, and Cavallino. Cavallino had a clever, but obscure Italian name (as it was given to me by my Italian friend when i was having a sore day), but it was obscure enough that after a week i've forgotten it.
soon to join my study buddies and i: Abuelito Café Europeano. Por Supuesto!

i think all this staying up late is making me delirious.


de-lir-i-ous |diˈli(ə)rēəs|
adjective
•in an acutely disturbed state of mind resulting from illness or intoxication and characterized by restlessness, illusions, and incoherence of thought and speech.
• in a state of wild excitement or ecstasy : there was a great roar from the delirious crowd.
i prefer the feeling of the second definition, but you take what you can get. :)


give someone a hug today! hugs are glorious.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Pre-Lent Prep.






i learned something new about spanish culture. apparently in the few days before Lent, the spanish people go CRRAAZY because they won't be able to for forty days. so it appears to me, they have 5 days of continuous sinning in preparation for the holiness they have to endure during the Lent season. they host a number of ongoing parties and they dress up crazily (i met some spanish cowboys and indians last night. that was a trip) and they drink and the whole lot (granted, the first night is the most intense, but it really does last longer than that). i thought Mardi Gras was nuts, but they devote 5 days to mardi gras-type activity.

meanwhile, but not consequently, i've had an excruciating headache for the last few days, for which i've been unable to find a cause or a cure. blood vessels have actually burst in my left eye, so that it looks like my eyes are bleeding. then cassidy and i started talking about The Lost Boys (80s vampire movie) and just talking about it made me feel more like a bad-ace vampire with bloody eyes than a crazy woman having an unending stroke. Thanks cass.

Superbowl tonight! Go Giants! i'm exciting to explain american football to all my international friends tonight. we're hitting up an irish pub at midnight to go be some crazy american football fans for a couple hours. i love my friends. :)

happy sabbath erbody.


Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Wednesday

Today i finished my second exam of the semester. it was an awful experience. i've never felt like such a failure to my parents and to everybody and to myself. i hate the spanish educational system, and i hate myself for not working harder in spite of my hate for the spanish educational system. i was weeping on the bus back to my barrio from the campus when i started thinking about how incredibly useless and silly it was that i was weeping. and how incredibly ironic.

life will go on in spite of my failures, especially in my lame spanish anthropology classes. there are people weeping all over the world right now, in response to real pain and sadness. there are people every day whose lives are defined by hardships and getting safely through one day. how many times a day do i weep for them?

and how many times a day do i not appreciate what i have now, and where i am?
life is so much bigger than what i'm crying about. i'm crying for myself.
life goes on without myself.

i am still learning. i am learning so much about what it is to be a human being, about different worlds, and about how big life is.

i'll try harder next time. i promise. but maybe i need to look at things from a different point of view.

my english friend John, my Italian friend alberto and i walked to the Templo de Debod again and we studied there. the temple is a bit higher than part of the city, overlooking it as if it were its valley, so it gives us a great view of the western horizon. the sun's outline was so defined and beautiful, and when it hit the horizon, the line dividing the land the the sun was so clear that it seemed like the land cut the sun right in half, no cloudy rays to blur it.
we ended up wadding up a news paper and playing baseball, then cricket, then futbol, then keep-away from me, with it.

i bought plane tickets to italy. i hope i don't fall in love with it. it'd be too much.

if people watch the simpsons, no wonder they have the view that they have of unitedstatesians! we're just helping it along, aren't we? (p.s. i'm bringing that into the english language. it makes more politically correct sense.)(another reason why i love spanish.) oh well.

apparently the Beatles' song that describes my life right now is "With a Little Help From My Friends" and i'm as gangsta as Don Vito Corleone. oh yes.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Sunday, January 20, 2008

hello!

today's weather in madrid: high 63 and sunny! today we walked around with cassidy's friend molly who's in madrid for a couple of days before going down to Granada to study for the semester. we walked to sol, and then to Plaza Mayor. here's a pic of mayor...





we sat in the sun for about 2 hours and listened to this attractive young spanish guitarist play for a crowd of onlookers. (most of whom were doing the same as we were.) he played oldies like "Hey Jude" and "Let It Be" from the Beatles, "With Or Without You" by U2, and some good stuff from mexicans like Mana. it was magical. (to me, everything that occurs in the springtime and summertime is magical, and today's weather was close enough to bring that feeling.)

i'm moved in with Cassidy now. it's lovely! i love my roomies and no longer wake up to a high pitched, angry woman's voice who's spanish speeds up to 80 miles a minute when she's yelling at her daughter. don't get me wrong, she was great, but there are better ways to rise and "shine".

i love spain!

and italians steal my heart on a daily basis. is that ok?

too much spanish tortilla= "oh i don't feel so good"....
see mom, i AM learning things here!

we still have two christmas trees up. i'm ok with that.

i love cafe, and i found out that my new landlord (our friend Dawn who lives here) has this little contraption that spins really fast and foams the milk. home-made lattes!

contrary to the general idea that (as i've heard) europeans have, i believe we CAN help people in africa. it may be naive, but everyone needs a chance.

neo-nazi florist!! lol oh man cassidy's parents are hilarious. but no cassidy isn't dating the son of a neo-nazi florist.

and Marta, just so you know, your blog is the highlight of everyday of my life. i read it EVERY single day. thanks for being so creative. and keeping us up-to-date on what you're finding in life. (marta's blog is just there, to the right.)

believe it or not, i have a lot more opinions and things i could say on my blog, but, this is what i'm writing about. :)

happy sabbath erbody.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

"Israeli security personnel will include snipers, bomb-sniffing dogs and bodyguards, including reservists called up especially for the visit. The operation, dubbed "Clear Skies," will cost Israel $25,000 for every hour Bush is in the country. "


http://www.haaretz.com/hasen/spages/942516.html


HA!

Thursday, January 3, 2008

Month of Hell

Preface:

Jesus thank you for the amazing Christmas break at home. i love my parents.
and my friends.

these posts always start out being as long as a novel, and end up being about 4 sentences long. maybe i'll write a book of all the things i was going to tell you and decided not to because my pride got in the way. eh?

feliz año and happy thursday.



Month of Hell....

5 down, 495 pages to go. + 3 projects.

see you in a month if i haven't exploded.

:)